Tonight I Auditioned for the school play, Grease. For the audition, I had to sing, but I know I wasn’t good enough for a call back. Here are the reasons:1. I sang to quietly 2. I messed up with the piano a couple of times so I should have sung with no music.3. If I had sung with no music, I would have been louder.4. I was so afraid, that I was trembling on stage, and my voice was shaky. I know im a good enough singer, but it was so much pressure. I tried to let myself go and sing, but my voice just strained, when it tried to sing like it wanted to.There are three performing arts I love to do, Acting, Singing, and Dancing. However now I feel like I can only do the ladder. Singing, every time I heard myself, on the videos of the rock consorts and shit, I always thought I sounded awful. Maybe it’s just me, but I don’t feel like I can trust my friends to tell me how good I am, because they are to afraid to crush me. As for acting, I guess im ok, but once I joined the acting group in HMB, i kinda got that im really not that good. I can’t keep a strait face at all. The only thing i can act out is anger. But I think I have a lot of anger inside me.The only thing I have confidence in is Modern Dance, because I feel like I can do that, and I love it more then anything. I just really want to dance again. I miss it and now is the time I really really feel I need it. Because I have entered an unfamiliar area in my life.
