Well, merry x-mas! I thinkthe best things I got this year were a new digital camera, a computer game, and a check for 100 dollars. Woo! Luv you all!
Today
Today. Well, I had some fun. I BBsat a baby while his parents were moving. Then I went out to lunch w/ my Dad. (Subway…mmm) Then, I came home and waited for my sister and mom who were over the hill. When they came home dad, kathryn and I went and got a x-mas tree. Well, Lemos farm, a farm with pony rides and jumpers ete. was right accross the street from where we got the tree, so Kathryn wanted to go feed the goats. so we went to Lemos farm and as we approched the goat pen we noticed how muddy it was, and we rememberd how they always jump on you. It didn’t sound great. Then, Kathryn got some “baaad memorys” about the goats, so we came back to the car just as it started raining. So we drove home in pouring rain with the tree on the roof of the car. So we got to the house, and we got the tree of the car in the rain. Then we brought it in the garage to put it in the stand. Finally we got it in the house where we dripped all over the place. Long story short, Kathryn and I spent the rest of the night decorating.
ok thats all!
A Used Outsider
Well, today was pretty crappy, and I will not mention names in any of this.
It started out with PE, which was reccos and soccer. Reccos wasn’t bad. It was soccer that sucked shit. I was afraid of the ball. Last time we played soccer, I was hit with the ball three times. Once in the shoulder, the other two in the face. I did alright this time. I was, however really insulted by one of the boys in the class. During the game, Buck was golley and left, so I took over for about a second, and this guy called a fowl and said he should get a free shot, but he only said that cause I was in the goal, and got pissed at Buck for trying to swich w/ me cause I was afriad of the ball. He was acting like such an ass!!!!
Then math, it wasn’t to bad, got out really early and had no one to talk to. Then choice. Chioce really sucks. At least, this choice does. It’s “giftmaking” and what we are doing now is makeing candles. There are to many people in the chioce so i made like about, four, four really fast and easy ones over a week. So I dont do ANYTHING in the kitchen, just outside with sand candles, and I do most of the cleanup. I mean! Fuck this!
OMG, I have like, no friends left to hang with. One of my awesomest friends is being really, i dunno…
When she first came to the school she and I were really cool friends. We did so much together, then she started making new firnds, and I was cool with that, then she started not hanging with me as much, saying sometimes she needed “breaks” from any of her friends. But now, she has found three other friends and she NEVER hangs out with me unless for some reason they are all unable to be around her. It like I am an old toy, tossed aside for new toys, and when the new toys are being played with by someone else, I am played with. I know that sounds weird but it’s true. It fucking sux shit! It’s like I’m not good enough for her.
My other friends leave me out a lot too. I mean, these two peoplewere both really cool, I loved talking and hanging with them both, but then one started likeing another, so i got them on friendly terms, now they won’t talk to me, when I am around them when they are around each other, they leave me out. They ignore me and act as if I’m not there.
This all just makes me wonder why I keep finding friendsthen suddenly ending up by myself with no one. Am I just annoying? Or weird, or am I mean? Why do people use me? I have feelings, but it sometimes seems like everyone has forgotten that. The only time I feel like I am truly peaceful and happy is when i dance, which wont start again till 2007.
I guess that there is a good reason why people use me. Or just dont like me. But I cant see it. Allright then, thats it!
Craft Fair-Taylor
Well, tomorrow is the craft fair. Taylor is going. I dont know whats going to happen. but we shall see!!!!!!
Dude! What a fight!
Well, this weekend has started out crappy and awesome together!
Friday night I went to the nutcracker and saw my crush from 7th grade. crazy huh? Well, today my dad lost his temper, got really scary. i dunno, when he gets mad, he can be really scary. But not so bad that i feel like he might hurt me. But today it was that bad. It was worse then anything i had ever heard. It was pretty crappy. I want to forgive him, but i dunno if I can. I’ll see soon.
Mitch
I have been thinking about Mitch a lot. In case you dont know who Mitch is he was my boyfriend for like a month or two. I broke up w/ him. He just wasn’t right. He always talked about himself. i mean really, he didn’t know my last name. I told him like a million times when he asked. I swear he didn’t know a little thing about me. He also never called or e-mailed me. It really sucked.
But I have been thinking about him. What did he see in me? I’m not especially pretty. No guys have every really looked at me. I dont really understand. But who does know? I guess im just weird. But then why would he like me if im weird? That party I went to, I guess it was really fast, I mean, I thought he saw some other girl as cuter then me. But, then she said something really weird. But then he was trying to impress me, get my attention, watching me when he thought I wasn’t looking. Later, he held my hand. I mean, come on! Now that I think about it, I just met him! I dont know.
At a party with the class once I lied about him kissing me. I know it sounds bad. I dont lie much. I just felt horrible, i was still thinking about him, and, well, it slipped out. I feel crappy about it, and whoever reads this had better not tell. I am glad that that confession is over.
After I broke up with him he didn’t talk to me. I just gave up trying to be friends. I probably wont ever talk to or see him again.
Well, maybe I’ll meet another guy, who saw whatever Mitch saw. Cause I dont know what some guy will ever see in me!
So.
So at the moment I guess you could call me cool, I am lways happy soemwhat, today I felt pretty awake achually, most days I dont get enough sleep adn end up a zombie. Last night I was so tired I went to bed at 8. That is REALLY rare. Anyway I got about 10 hours of sleep so that was nice. Anyway i had better get the rest of my HW done.
